I know she didn't mean anything by it, she really was just the sweetest lady... but her words definitely hurt my feelings and made me go into the deep dark parts of my mind. The part of my mind that makes me question EVERYTHING.
Before I met Daniel I had BIG career goals. I had big dreams and plans for my life. I was a year away from finishing my double major and minor. I was going to go to New York, get a career and wave to the little people when I won a Tony. These were my plans and these plans were awesome.
Obviously my plans changed and I AM 100% okay with that! I love my life and wouldn't trade it for all the Tony's in the world.
That being said-- being "just" a mom was never in my life plan. It still isn't. Once Grace and baby #2 are old enough to be in school for a few hours a day (Grace in Kindergarten/1st Grade -- Baby #2 in pre-school). I plan to go back to school and finish my teaching degree. Then when Baby #2 is in school full time I plan to start teaching.
However, as I was thinking about why that offended me so much, or made me feel inferior to a "working" mom, or why it made me feel shameful...
...instead of feeling shameful about being "just" a mom, I felt shameful about feeling shameful!
How could I feel anything but grateful for this little angel?!
Her story makes me realize something that I never really considered before: not everyone can be a mommy.
That sentence just hurts my heart.
Everyone woman deserves to know how it feels to create a life with God.
Everyone deserves to know how it feels to see your child light up and smile the worlds biggest smile when you walk into the world.
Everyone deserves to know how it feels to see your child walk for the first time.
Every woman deserves to hear their child say "mama".
The plain facts that some women can't makes me heartsick.
Molly's story makes me realize something, even if I didn't have plans to go back to school:
Dang straight I am just a mom!
Included in that "just a mom" is a world full of indescribable and incredible moments and memories that I wouldn't give up for any type of degree or pay grade.
It's also the thing I am most proud of about myself.
So, I don't know about the rest of you mama's out there but...
I am JUST FINE with being JUST A MOM!!!!