The day he shipped off for Basic. Lots of tears that day.
He talked about it the very first time he met me.
Daniel leading the pac at BMT graduation. He graduated with Honors and with the Marksmanship medal/ribbon thing.
He wanted to be in Special Forces (A pararescuer to be exact. yeah, the second most dangerous job in the military, period.) but fortunately for me, he is blue deficient color blind, so he can't go in a plane. That really and seriously bummed him out. I was secretly doing a happy dance...
The family at BMT graduation, Gracie's head is so big! She really didn't have any hair! So crazy, but so cute.
I will have my very own 007. Sort of.
He is doing SO amazingly well at his language. (Which I don't know if I am allowed to say on here...) It is a really hard language that a lot of people are struggling with in his class. He is taking to it so quickly! It's a little scary how fast he is picking it up and I can tell he is having fun with it.
I am just so proud of him and how smart he is and just how great of a husband/father/provider he is.
But here is where I falter: Daniel is also an Airman Leader. He volunteered for it. He thought I said I was okay with it. I didn't. Not much I can do about it now.
He was a green rope, which meant he was in charge of his own squad thingy. That took a lot of time away from our already limited family time. I was not happy.
To get promoted to the different ropes you have to get certain things done. So Daniel has had to volunteer a lot and do other things that give him "bullets" on a thing for not only promotion within Airman Leadership but in the Air Force period.
Now he has been promoted to a yellow rope, which now only takes a day away from family time. Which stinks, but it's better than green rope.
He will probably be promoted to a red rope (the highest one.) in a few months.
He is showing the commanders he is a good man and a good Airman, and he's getting noticed and I am SO proud of him.
But all this good attention kinda sucks because he got volun-told he was going to do the Joint Service Board thing, and he has to study a lot for it, and it will take days out of ONE of our only TWO weeks of vacation a YEAR. So, I am not a happy camper. BUT if he wins, he will be Airman of the Quarter. How cool is that?
You would think knowing this could get him promoted to a Senior Airman quicker, thus meaning a quicker time to be promoted to a Staff Sergeant--which means more money for us--would make me excited and happy!
In a way, it does. Daniel is doing what he needs to do to provide for his family and again, I am proud that he is getting noticed for being the amazing guy that he is.
But it's really hard for me.
Daniel and I have only been married a year and a half. We have only been living on OUR OWN and TOGETHER for 8-9 months. We need time together!
There are days where he has a ton of homework and I literally only get to talk to him for about 15 minutes before we go to bed. Though lately, he does a good job of doing most of it on the bus so he can spend more time with us! So add extra duties to that and it's even shorter amount of time. On days like that, I usually take care of Gracie 100% from sun up to sun down. That is really hard, because on some days, I truly need a break. I know Daniel doesn't like those days at all, either. Granted, one of those days hasn't happened in awhile, but the extra stuff really does cut down on our family time.
Sometimes I think I would have preferred if he just flew under the radar for a bit so that we could have as much time as we possible could together. But then I know that's stupid and I don't ever want to hinder Daniel's progress. I only want to help him succeed and be recognized for being amazing.
But I want US to be the number one, not the U.S. He is married to me first, not the Air Force. Sometimes, with all his responsibilities, it seems that the military gets more of him than I do.
That really eats at me.
I know that life won't be like this in the operational Air Force (Daniel is still in training status, even though his training is more than a year long. blurgh.), or so Daniel says...and I am anxiously awaiting the day we move to our first duty station.
The military is very tricky. I grew up in it so you'd think I would know this.
But you never ever EVER really know what you are getting in to until you are in it.
Every situation is different.
I do love a man in uniform ;) That green ropey thing will be yellow in a few days. (Meaning he got promoted up a rope.)
But, I do realize that when he signed on that dotted line, in a way, so did I.
And in the grand scheme of military responsibility, we are VERY lucky at the moment. At least he isn't deployed...*knock on wood*
I signed up to support Daniel in all that he does. I signed on to be there for him through it all, even when I don't like it.
I gotta suck it up, and just deal with it. I have to be the supportive wife because Daniel deserves at least that. I know he'd suck it up for me.
I am sure when we are forty and living in a house with heated floors and pool, I will look back on this and be grateful that he started climbing the successful ladder early.