Monday, July 1, 2013

A New Life

There is a song from the Broadway musical from "Jekyll & Hyde" called "A New Life" that is basically about a young woman in the depths of dispair, yearning for something to change her life. It's honestly one of the most depressing songs possibly in existence. Not to mention a scene later she gets brutally murdered...but that's a different story...

My point is, I think we all at some point yearn for something that will change our lives. We yearn for that chance, that break, that inspiration to come into our lives so we can seize it.

Only a lot of the times, we mistake opportunity for coincidence and don't do anything about it.

I wonder how many times God looks down and shakes his head, sheds a tear, and tries again to help us.

Lucky enough for me, there has been a few times where I have seized the opportunity; I am talking about meeting Daniel of course. Even though I wasn't technically a member when I met him, I still prayed every single day to Heavenly Father and begged him and pleaded with him to help me overcome the MONSTER depression I was in. I always find it a little punny and funny that my Savior sent me the man who saved me. I am so grateful I took a leap of faith with Daniel. I'd say it's really paid off. ;)

I do so love him to pieces.
When I had this melt-down recently...well I shouldn't call it that. It didn't end up being full-fledged melt-down. I recognized the road and I got off right when I should have. I was able to re-group, enjoy my baby, enjoy my husband and just relax.

During my down-time, I don't know how I got there, or what in the world I was reading, but I somehow found the blog 71toes.
The Woman Behind the Blog: Shawni Pothier. Watch her story here

Mothers, Mormons, wives--I implore you to read through this blog. As I became a creeper and read through her ENTIRE blog (I stayed up late at night sometimes...) I had a notebook out and I wrote down everything I wanted to remember. By the time I got caught up, I had half that notebook filled. I am buying her parents' books and I can't wait to read them.

She gives good advice and what's better is she puts it into action. She's a wife, a mother and Mormon who is just trying to raise her children deliberately. I love that.

But what I love most about Shawni's blog is the life she leads is totally attainable. It's not like reading a blog and you walk away thinking "That woman is super woman. How in the heck does she function. I could never do that." Granted, I still think this woman is role-model and she is super. But I know that everything she does is something I can do with my own family.

She said something somewhere about enjoying your children at all stages, because it all goes by so fast and you'll look back and regret not soaking it in more.

I already knew that but gosh, when I read it, it made me think about the things I wish I was doing differently with Gracie. I am proud to say that I have changed a good portion of the things I wanted to. I'm still working on the rest.

Reading her blog gave me a big boost and got me out of the funk I have been in since Easter. It reminded me of the kind of person I want to be, and the kind of person I can be.

I am already putting a lot of her advice into action and I can tell it's making a difference.

I know that it wasn't by coincidence that I found her blog. I think my Heavenly Father knew I needed inspiration to help me improve. I am glad I was in the mindset to take that opportunity and grow from it.

I am a mother. It's super hard sometimes.

I am a wife. It's super hard sometimes.

I am a Mormon. It's super hard sometimes.

You could apply that sentence to anything in life. But I think the sometimes is the most important part.

Those titles (wife, mother, Mormon) aren't going away (and I don't want them to!) so I have to learn to realize that though it's hard, it's only hard sometimes.

There are times where I feel like the whole weight of the world is on my shoulders and that I am the worst wife, the worst mother and by far the worst Mormon. Those times really stink.

But I know that all three of these things, while hard sometimes, are the three greatest blessings in my life that I am extremely grateful for.

The rest of the time it's honestly, truthfully (and totally cheesy but true) the happiest times of my life. There are times in my life the last two years where I have been completely, totally and blissfully happy.

Maybe it's time to focus on that.


  1. You are amazing! I'm glad you are back because I've really enjoyed getting to know you the past little while!And I really love that song. Oh man, Jekyll and Hyde is one of my most favorite musicals. My voice teacher thinks I'm strange because the sad, depressing, passionate songs are my favorite to sing!


  2. Check out as well! Shawni's sister started the website and its amazing!

  3. I'm so glad that you're back! It's amazing how just little things that we seem to stumble on really end up being direction from the lord, and can be such tender mercies.

  4. What a sweet post! Thank you so much for your kind words and I'm so happy you found

  5. Whoops, I don't know what happened with that last comment but I'm glad you found some things that spoke to you. You sound like a wonderfully strong and amazing woman!! Much love, Shawni


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