Thursday, April 24, 2014

The Greatest Star

Not many of you know this, but I love Barbra Streisand. Like...I treasure her above most people in this world and today is her 72nd birthday.


My love for her started young because my Grandma loves her and always listens to her music. The first song of Barbra's I ever learned was Evergreen. It's one of my grandma's very favorite songs in the world.



And from that point on, my love slowly grew. 

Then there was a period in my life where I didn't have really anyone outside of my grandma. I was sick, I was very alone and in the hospital a lot. At one point, I couldn't even sing because of a surgery I had to remove a tumor from my throat. It had put so much pressure on my vocal cords that singing was painful and the sound that came out was not pretty. So there I was, alone, and every dream I had ever worked towards went down the drain. Singing had always been a release for me, a way to connect and express what was going on inside and now I couldn't. I got really depressed, really quickly. I couldn't listen to music. I couldn't watch any theatre. It was incredibly hard for me. Who was I if I couldn't sing? Who was I if Broadway was no longer an option? Then one day, I saw an old performance of Barbra's. People from her 1994 concert.  I had watched this video before (of course), I regard it as the best performance of People. It shook something in me and reminded me of what I wanted, what I had to work for, and the kind of performer I wanted to be. I entered vocal rehab and began the never ending work to rehab my voice. My confidence in singing in public is still really shaky. I now have incredible stage fright. Which I would be more sad about, but so does Barbra and I think that's kind of cool. Barbra gave me an outlet. She gave my batteries a charge. She filled my soul! She still does.

To this day, whenever I get sad, or depressed, or scared, I watch a Barbra movie. She has always been a beacon of light and hope whenever I'm surrounded in darkness.


Which is why I got this tattoo on my foot. Barbra has saved me in so many ways. 

I honestly don't know where I'd be if I didn't watch that video. 

Love, Peace and Barbra Streisand has long been my motto. I need all three things in life equally. 

Music has the insane ability to heal you when you are broken. It fills the holes and makes you feel hole. There is a reason music therapy is so widely renowned as a healing method. Barbra did that and continues to do that for me. 

She is a goddess. She is my hero. She is my idol.

For reals. 


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Your girl is lovely, Hubbell. 

xoxo--

Tanika 

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